Stress again

Stress again

Jun 20, ‘08 12:41 AM for everyone

Namndag: Linda Thought for today:     “And she finally stopped playing their song, when she realized she was dancing alone.”       Tonite I went the college for kind of church service at the Augustana Heritage convention. It was about the background of my church & the Swedes who started it & the college. We did lots of singing. My friends Gem & Joshua were part of the musicians. I saw my friend from Sweden who is here with the Karlstad bishop. It was a wonderful nite. At the convention is a distant cousin of Willie’s, Helene. Their great grandmothers were sisters. We have never met but have emailed. But tonite I found her!! She is very nice. Probably too busy for us to spend much time together though. She will come here again on her own time. Lately things have not felt right. Bill got ill so I understand that. But he still is extra quiet & not talkative at all. And when I asked him tonite if he was taking off for harvest like he always has he said no. So did he & his father have a fight but kept it from me? Did I do something to upset him? Or Jenn? I just cannot imagine harvest with hardly any help. I am scared Bill will never come back here. And why would he. We are too dysfunctional. Bill not helping has really thrown me for a loop. My stress is back, worse than it was. My head is buzzing. I hardly dared to check my blood pressure but I thought I better. It is up but not scary high. And almost time to take my meds. What else can go wrong this week? I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. And with harvest, it certainly will. Better head for bed & hope I can sleep. Doubt I will.   Gått för dagen. Kanske. Be well, do good work, and keep in touch!

Tags: harvest, bill, willie, jenn, helene, augustana, gem, josh, stress

Not much to do

Not much to do

Jun 19, ‘08 3:28 PM for everyone

Namndag: Germund, Görel Thought for today:     Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. – Jewish saying       Last nite we were supposed to have all this horrible severe weather. We got not one drop of rain, no thunder or lightning. Quite nice!!! And they had the bull’s eye over Salina. Amazing how wrong the weathermen can be. Now there are storms surrounding us but nothing here. Hope it stays away for a couple of weeks. But no hot weather. A quiet day today. May take in a sing-a-long tonite at the Augustana Heritage converntion, but that depends on the weather. Not going out if it is stormy. Here is some background on the Augustana Synod. Here. A distant relative of Willie’s is here for it. Not a clue what she looks like. But we will find each other. We have emailed family info back & forth. Have a friend who is being harassed by snail mail & email mail. It upsets me. Why do others feel they have the right to try to force all others to be exactly like them & follow THEIR rules/beliefs. And of course, these are good church going people. My God is not a God of hate & prejudice. No idea what god they think they are following. And then when my friend turns to others for help they criticise my friend for that. I am saddened to watch someone I care for go through this. Dishes are calling my name. Where, oh where is that lazy maid!!?? Gått för dagen. Kanske. Be well, do good work, and keep in touch!

Tags: väde, vänner, frienemy, familjen